Extract from 'Looking for Doris' by Barbara Brown Copyright 2008 Barbara Brown

This is a very sensitive novel about the conflict of inner and outerlife. Anyone who has been in this position will recognize the dilemma and its possible resolutions.

Z’ev Ben Shimon Halevi, International teacher of Kabalah.
Barbara Brown

From Chapter 2

When I encounter something like this, when the seeing hurts, when some frailty comes my way - just passing, as this boy – I send a prayer for it. The habit started when I was a child and has remained. I have inside me a wailing wall, my own Jerusalem, and I constantly insert messages, tufts of white paper covered with the dust of stones.

I smile at Guido who looks bronze and polished in the swinging light. It’s a false smile, I don’t feel it in my heart. My heart is sore. The joy and creativity of our sexuality doesn’t seem to enable other intimacy. We’re compatible when we do practical or physical things – where shall we eat, what walk to take, where to put the towels on the beach … But when we move towards each other from our archetypal differences, we fumble to take hold, and miss each other, hands helpless, unable to grasp. This leaves a hole and a disappointment for me. It seems to leave anger and frustration for him. Sex sweetens the loss for both of us. And then the effect wears off.     More »

This gorgeous book will stir emotions you didn’t know you had.

Anne Jirsch, author of Instant Intuition and The Future Is Yours.

Barbara Brown